A Little of Everything type of Site

Happy belated new years!

Happy new years to everyone! It is a fresh year. This past year for my family has been rough. My dad’s girlfriend found out she had cancer and went through chemo throughout the summer and is now going through radiation. Her daughter has had it pretty rough due to finding out about her mom, she moved in with her and stayed up at nights watching over her and taking care of her. My dad was getting frustrated with his work place and is has not been happy working there. My grandma had a stroke and had to go through the hospital. I got bit by a dog and had to get rabies vaccinations. It has been a long year but we did have good moments as well. My dad’s girlfriend found out in the middle of chemo that she was completely free of cancer but they wanted to finish all the treatments to be for sure. Her hair has already started growing back really nicely! Her daughter found out right before the end of the year that she got a job at the hospital as a lab assistant.

I can’t wait to start school this Wednesday for the spring semester! I hear other people saying they are not ready but trust me I am! I worked a lot over the break and it is certainly not my dream job. I do not understand how these other people do it full time every week. A lot of them have two jobs. Its a lot of work working in memory care day after day. I can not wait to start this semester so I can go back to working only a couple to a few days a week! I am hoping to apply to a bunch of hospitals again now that I have three months of experience. I am desperate to work in the hospital and away from assisted living facilities. Also I can not wait for my next paycheck! I worked a lot of hours this past two weeks and I cannot wait to see that it was worth it!

This new year I cannot wait to move into a nice house with my dad, his girlfriend, her daughter, their dog and my dog. I will not be living there for too long but it will be nice while it lasts. Also I cannot wait till they get married although it will be a while before then. I hope to get a new job within the next couple months or so (hopefully before summer). I have already started to get organized by asking for a shoe holder for Christmas, buying a closet organizer, buying filing folders. I will become organized! I will not say its my new years resolution but more of a goal because every time I say resolution I never keep at it for some reason. I also have a giant calendar to keep up with my schedule!

This year will be interesting. I can’t help but keep thinking about how in August I will be turning twenty. Two decades old. I will no longer be a teenager. I still have acne, have a tendency to be awkward, and am disorganized. I still procrastinate. I hope the last eight months of being a teenager will push me to become more of an adult.

How was everyone’s past year and what do you expect from the next?


P.S. does anyone else’s family eat black eyed beans and greens on new years? Apparently the beans bring good luck and the greens bring money. A couple years back we ate grapes for good luck and ran around with luggage  for luck with traveling. These traditions were with different parts of the family. I guess we will see if any of it works.


Japan’s veggietales?

I posted this a while back on my other blog but thought I would post it on this blog as well. This was just too funny to me when I watched it the first time. Hope you guys get a chuckle or two.


Leave a comment »

PPD test

I don’t know if any of you guys have ever gotten a PPD test done before but they are weird! For my new job I had to get one. I got one last year while taking my CNA class in high school. They did it in school actually for the whole class. This time it was for work so you get a slip and take it to the health place and wait like an hour for the nurse to inject you with something under your skin. It causes a bump but then later goes away. You are not suppose to rub or scratch it.

The PPD test is to check if you are infected with Tuberculosis. Its easily transmitted through breathing really close because its in the lungs. Basically the test is to see if you have those TB cells in you and if you do the stuff they injected under your skin will make you get a reaction. Typically its a bump with redness. If you are allergic then obviously there will be more problems. For me it got a little red with a slight bump and then almost completely went away before they checked it. They do a reading on it 48-72 hours later. I was so worried it was going to stay red but it went away! apparently the redness does not matter. Its the bump part. I was negative again! Yay!

If someone is positive then they have to get a chest x-ray checked by a doctor and then start medication.

It’s an interesting experience. I get to go through it every single year as a healthcare worker. joy.


Leave a comment »

Gratitude Journal #6

I should really try to keep up with these more because I can be such a negative person that remind myself about the positive is like meditation in a way to me!

Alright so, recently I got into groupon! They have an app for your phone or you can go online and get great deals on all sorts of things! I got myself a mini spa package. I got a facial, my hands moisturized and just an hour of relaxing. The lady was great! I never had a face massage before and that was nice. My skin felt refreshed, I felt like my hands were lotioned to the core with this wax stuff. The chair was warm and comfortable. I would recommend this. It took a lot of stress away. I appreciate these groupons because without it, I never would have gotten it for myself.

I appreciate having my dog, Lacy in my life. With her wet nose and cute little whiskers that remind me of an otter. She is by my side. I love going on car rides with her and we take walks together. I took her to the farmers market a couple weeks back. She is my best friend. She never even licks anybody. She is well behaved.

I appreciate my dad even though he is butt head. I love him. He worries about me at 8pm at night. I get a text saying “hey where are you at this time of night?” What an old man. Its nice to have someone care about you rather then no one ever ask if you are okay and where you are. He allows me to talk his ears off to a point because our schedules get so crazy that its nice to talk to him when I do get to see him.

I appreciate my new found family. My dad’s girlfriend had found out she had cancer at the beginning of the summer and has been going through chemo. She has no more cancer in her but they are just finishing the treatments for sure. I love her and my new sister, Melissa and all my crazy aunts that are now part of my family because of them.

I also would like to give a shout out to the sun for providing us sunlight and warmth which allows our bodies to make Vitamin D. I also appreciate being able to go to school! I know others can not but I appreciate being lucky enough to go and I plan to make good use with my degree.

Keep smiling,

What do you appreciate today? Is it something simple like chocolate chip cookies or is there something else that has made you feel humble and happy lately?


Almost Halloween already!

What a crazy ride it has been! I don’t think I have posted since July? It says on my notifications that I have more followers? Are you guys out there actually reading my posts haha. I am always shocked because I post so little although I keep wanting to post more, more often but life gets so busy. I’m thinking about posting vlogs? I’ve never done one before and I don’t even know if I am interesting enough to talk about on a video but it may be less time consuming then writing because my posts can get so long.

Well a little catch up since July…

I survived my stitches and shots although I am now scarred all over my left hand. Not that bad but sometimes I stop and just go, “Man, why did I have to go get bit?” I realized that since I let my grandmother cut the stitches off that its probably why one of my scars is so bad, because she did it too soon. She used to be a registered nurse but its been so long. I should have went to the doctor or waited longer on the stitches. Oh well.

I started my first semester of college but it has not been this huge life changing event because I still live at home and the school is literally 15 minutes away from the house. Its a lot cheaper then a university so I will end up doing two years here and then transferring over to a university to go into a nursing program. Right now I am taking four classes. One online and the other three in the classroom. Humanities is online, I actually just finished a narrated powerpoint presentation on Isaac newton. Very interesting man. I am taking Intermediate Algebra ughhh. Its so boring because I took Trigonometry in my last high school year so I am ahead of all this and should be taking college algebra but my counselors did not do anything to change it when I asked. Its easy so my GPA will be good at least. Then I will take the actual credit counting class next semester. I felt like a nerd in this math class because I got a 98 on my test and the teacher was saying, the highest grade was 98 and I kind of slumped down in my chair. I’m already Asian so everyone already says oh its because you’re Asian. When in reality its because I took this already in my Freshman year of high school. I do have to admit that the teacher is good at explaining and should be a high school teacher. Lots of kids would have benefitted from him. My other classes are Nutrition and Sociology, which are my longest classes. Although neither have kept us for the full 3 hours. I like both teachers a lot. My Nutrition teacher is good but he has not given us many grades. Our first test is next week which is already halfway through the year to just get a big grade. It will be 25 questions so no biggy. My sociology teacher is awesome. She is from Virginia and comes to class in a tank top and jeans. She is not judgmental and is just an incredible lady! She used to be a parole officer and now she helps with the hotline for abused women. She is extremely smart and tough.

My classes I take are evening classes from Tuesday to Thursday. Then the online class but its basic.

I also gave my two weeks notice about four weeks or something to my serving job because they were being so horrible to all of us. I did not want to be mean about it because I get that the bosses just had a baby and have a small business but they never gave us schedules until the day before, they nagged me about washing my hands too much (what the heck right? Would you be comfortable knowing that the restaurant owners told their employees to not wash their hands as often?), they were super cheap about a lot of things like paper towels and the list went on. The lady was out most of the summer but then came back a couple days a week and would bring the baby into the kitchen while in her stroller because they did not want to get a baby sitter. She told me to stop saying “Hey, guys,” when people walked into the restaurant and nagged me about it all day and then told me later that if I didn’t stop saying it she wanted to strangle me. She laughed as she said this. I just was not making enough money to be treated like crap. I was going to give them longer then two weeks of help if they needed but then they did not give me any days during the weekdays so I could earn tips so I was like okay, bye as soon as my two weeks was done. I already had a job lined up as a CNA (Certified Nursing Assistant). I had gone out after I gave my two weeks and applied to every assisted living facility and long term facility with a nice done resume and got an interview the next day and was waiting to end my job at the other place to start training in my new job. And of course I got two texts within this time asking to come back for a couple of hours for cash work. It is not worth 20 dollars or whatever for me.

I am working in the memory care unit right now. There are only 13 residents and I have gotten a lot of patience because everyone has Alzheimer’s so a lot of things happen repetitively like questions, stories, and so forth. Its hard work for 9 dollars an hour but I got a lot of hours so far. I am worried that I am going to be over worked. I may ask them to give me less hours during my school semesters since I still need to study. They are giving me about three to 4 days a week right now so some weeks all I do is go to work four days straight and then go to school three days straight afterwards. I still have half the day to myself but I think a day free a week would be nice. Maybe next semester I will tell them because this semester is easy. Plus I don’t like being away form the residents for too long because I worry about how some of the other employees treat them. Not necessarily do something to them but what they do not do like check if they need to be changed more often and so forth.

That’s just a summary of my school and work life these past couple months. Hope everyone is doing well!


Feel free to comment about what is going on in your life right now! I’d love to hear!

I also have lots more to talk about so I will try to post more soon!

Leave a comment »

Half way there!

Got the first set of shots for my rabies vaccinations! I survived! They really need to get stickers made up for anyone who gets rabie vaccinations. They are awful but I suppose dying from rabies is worse. Its a horrible way to die so the pain and misery for two week is worth it I suppose. Still not fun though!

The first day! How does that sang go? “The first is the worst…” It truly is. The first preventive shot is based off of weight. There is no exact shot amounts. It just depends on where the bite is apparently. Since mine is in the hand it hurt worse then usual. The nurses and the doctor were really nice. The nurses were super cool and I really appreciate their efforts to keep me from getting rabies! Its apparently pretty rare for people to get these shots nowadays. The First shot was on the top of my hand and the nurse said so that she doesn’t have to give me multiple shots she was going to fan the injection around the top of my hand, if that makes sense. I didn’t look but I must say that the actual prick of the needle didn’t hurt nearly as much as the stuff injected into my hand. That stuff burned. Then it was two more shots into my hand on the bottom under the main puncture wounds from the bite. After that it was one shot into each hip. After that it was my first vaccination into my right arm but that was a cake walk compared to the other things. So overall 6 shots that day. I was tired and sore that day and got a low grade fever later on. Those are all normal symptoms.

Third day shot. Today is the third day into the shots. I got one vaccination shot into my left arm this time. Not bad exept it made my arm really sore and I have been tired and got a low grade fever which are normal symptoms.

I have two more shots coming up. Those are just one shot in my arm and that’s not too bad. The cool thing is that the vaccination is a pretty purple color. Weird but cool.

Keep smiling and don’t ever get bitten (its not fun),


Rabies shots

So it turns out that I will be getting the Rabies shots. The first day is about three shots and I know for sure one will be injected underneath the bites and then one at the shoulder/arm and then at the hip. Then I will have to come back there the third day then something like the 11th day, all the way up to the 21st day. I will be starting them tomorrow around 1pm. I have to drive an hour and a half to get the first day’s then I can get them moved to a clinic closer to me. Not many clinics carry it because its not usually needed. I could go to the ER to get them started but seriously? That’s a lot of money just for some shots that honestly may not even be needed!

I spent most of my Thursday calling people about the dog’s paperwork. I started with the owner of the dog who said she sent the Vet’s info to the Police and Animal control. Well I talked to my grandmother on how to go about proof. She told me to call Animal control and check. I did, waited a while on hold and found out, nope! No paperwork from any such “vet”. Called owner back. She said she sent it. Asked for the Vet’s number. Called that number and got the most unprofessional response from some supposed rescue center for small dogs under 20 lbs. The dog that I got bit by was a pitbull mix and the lady said there wasn’t ever any pitbulls in her facility. Called the owner back to have not much of an explanation. My grandmother was so upset and so she called animal control, the police station, and the health department for me. I got a call form the health department from a man and he said he could get the appointments for me if I decide to go through with the shots. The owner was suppose to get the paperwork together for me. The owners are pretty much responsible for the dog being hit and biting me although I went up to the dog. I feel responsible for it too but we do have a leash law here that says you must have your dog on a leach or behind a gated area. the dog ran into the road because there was not a leash on her. I’m more upset with the fact that the owners were not more responsible for their dog! They moved there 10 days before this happened. The dog was not used to the area and should have been on a leash. Their house is directly in front of a busy road. It was around 5pm where lots of traffic was going on! What were they thinking? I’m still so upset about that poor dog being hit. It was such a big construction like truck that hit it. The owner didn’t even go to her dog. If it was my dog or even if it wasn’t I would have ran over to help the dog and get him or her to an emergency animal hospital. We have a bunch around here.

I’m sure you can tell I am a huge animal lover. My dogs are spoiled. They’re like my children to me.

The shots seem to be covered by my insurance which apparently can cost up to $1200 altogether. The only thing will be the visit costs. I think the owners should pay that. We didn’t ask anything for the stitches. If they had not buried the dog, the dog would have been tested for rabies. I think I will leave this to my dad to handle calling them. I am tired of all the calls. I shouldn’t have to be calling everyone in the universe for some paperwork that doesn’t even seem to exist. Also I am a bit upset that animal control nor the police called me up again after the first initial call. They said they would have the medic team call me if paperwork didn’t show up to sign me up for appointments. Then again, they had to hear my grandmother tell them a piece of her mind so I suppose we are all even. haha.


P.S. Don’t try to help a dog that is hurt. Call the police or find the owners. Lesson learned.

Leave a comment »

New Member to the Stitches Club

These past couple weeks have been pretty crazy. For the most part, negative and upsetting. I graduated from High school. Yay! Now I won’t have to see most of those people ever again. Well actually I will end up seeing them around town and such but not as bad as before. I feel disappointed that my Senior year was not as exciting and great as I had hoped it would be. My dad threw me a graduation party and I had tons of family down. Lets just say that there was tons of drama and I just wished we never even had it. I have a complicated family. I have my biological parents who had divorced when I was little and my biological father took my brother and got remarried and my biological mother took me and got remarried. Both have half siblings of mine. I came to live with my considered adoptive family in Florida. Its complicated and confusing and I believe if you want to know more I have it all on my about me page. Well I have my adopted Dad here who is my legal guardian although I am now 18 so am thinking about getting an adult adoption. He is in the process of getting divorce with the worst person in the world who still tries to screw with our lives, S. She showed up to cause tons of drama and also she told us that our dog passed away and apparently already had our dog Bama cremated. Bama was apparently sick before she died so S had kept from us that our dog was sick and we could’ve visited her and then she got the dog cremated and acted like Bama died the day of my graduation. She is a sick and manipulative person. My dad and I hadn’t even got to see our dog for over a year, actually closer to two years for me. We did adopt a dog a year ago from the pound who I love with all my heart but adopting another dog doesn’t fill the hole in my heart from Bama. She was a crazy and beautiful weimaraner. I like to think that if we were ever able to get Bama back while she was alive that our dog Lacey would have enjoyed her company.

During my graduation party I did get a good sum of money which I put in my savings account and then ended up having to use for my car which before this decided to go crazy on me. My biological mother gave me a 2005 Honda Accord which is a pretty decent car. The carpet came with a lot of stains and it was a dirty car so we got it detailed from someone and its a nice car, especially for someone my age. She had a car accident in it so there are some scrapes and the front grill was gone so we bought a new one and I haven’t had a chance to try to get some of the scrapes out. She did not have a clicker/beeper for it anymore so I had to lock and unlock with the one door lock on it on the drivers side. The lock decided to not work anymore while I was out shopping with my boyfriend. He had to go through the trunk and open the door. The car’s alarms went off and turning on the car with the key did not turn the alarms off. The logic for this car is just ugh! We had to sit inside the car until the alarm stopped then drive home and then my dad had to unhook the stupid horn and mess with the fuses until the alarm mostly stopped. My door handle was really ghetto and in the end after the graduation “party” we took it to a mechanic and he checked the car out and found that the steering knuckle was really lose because it was installed incorrectly. They went on vacation because the mechanic and his wife run their own business in their backyard so I had to wait for over two weeks for my car because my dad didn’t trust anyone else. I was carless for two weeks. My dad shared his car part of the time and my grandmother took me to work. The thing ended up costing me 1300 dollars because the alarm system and the steering knuckle.

Besides that I have been having a lot of medical problems. I have had this strange choking problem for a while when I drink water. A couple weeks ago I freaking choked on an eggroll from our Chinese food while we were at my dad’s girlfriends house. Who does that?? It turns out that I aspirated some of the food in my bronchi and it got really irritated. I was coughing so bad, mostly at night. I would try to go to bed around 11pm and end up starting to cough around midnight and would cough for a good hour or two, sometimes more. It was miserable. I finally went to the doctor (New doctor! My last doctor, I did not care for. this guys seems to be great so far!). He listened to my lungs and bronchi and everything and found out I had bronchitis and gave me antibiotics and some medicine for acid reflux because he thinks I might have some acid reflux that happens at night and started to damage my esophagus which is why I have been choking on water really badly. He said if the antibiotics didn’t stop the coughing I would need to get a chest x-ray. Thankfully it has stopped. I have an appointment in a month to see if the medicine helped because if it doesn’t then I need to go to a specialist to have a video camera be put into my esophagus while I am sleeping. Joy! Its seems to helping though.

My Cousins came down to visit me for my Graduation present and it had been so long since I had seen them! I missed them! It was nice! They live in Tennessee because My cousin is a nuclear engineer. He works so much! They have super expensive taste because they took me shopping at the outlet malls here which is crawling with tourist so tons of sales but also really rude people who shop there. We were planning to go to Universal as well but of course this isn’t a great month for me!

We were driving to the outlet mall last Monday in the late afternoon time and a dog got hit by a car in front of us. My cousin pulled over and I was the first one out of the car. I went over and wasn’t thinking. The dog was in a lot of pain and it still makes me tear up thinking about it. That poor dog. I was going to try to move her out of the street and she bit my hand. It was a couple chomps and then she just kept it clamped down on my hand. I had to use my right hand to open the jaw to get my left hand out. She was a pitbull mix and had a pretty strong jaw. The bite gave me three bad punctures and a bunch of scraps and cuts. My cousins got me in the car and the cops came and asked if we wanted an ambulance and asked for a number. A really young girl had come out of the house and had her cell phone and she was just overwhelmed. She didn’t know what to do. I asked her if the dog had had shots and she said yes. The girl was super upset and said she had kids inside the house. She didn’t do anything for the dog though. Some random shirtless guys around the neighborhood came out and dragged the dog to the side and it was just messed up. We went to the urgent care and was given some paperwork and was immediately brought in to the back into a draped room. A nurse cleaned the wound which loosened my hand because it was super cramped at first. I started to feel the pain and the doctor came to look at it and he gave us some options. While we waited for my dad to come I got some x rays. I ended up getting two stitches on the top of my hand and two on the palm of my hand. The shots for numbing hurt the worse out of all of it because it was one on each side of each wound. Just ow! The stitches mostly felt like nothing but I felt a little. Its been healing up well and I can use my left hand a little bit but it still hurts sometimes and its getting itchy. I have to take antibiotics for this. They also gave me narcotic for pain. I took it once and never again! It made me so sleepy for a whole day even though it was suppose to last 6 hrs. It also relieve any pain. Tylenol has been good to me. Although the pain isn’t that bad until I hit it on something and I am clumsy. I got a call from a police officer about he bite and apparently animal control has to get involved paperwork wise and the owners are trying to find papers to show that the dog has recent rabies shots. If not they want me to get rabies shots. I am still waiting to hear from the Police Officer or the Medical team. I do have the girl’s number who is the owner because the police officer told me that she wanted to thank me. I still need to call her. I feel so bad because the dog did pass away. The owners and their kids just moved their 10 days before this happened. The officer told me they had buried the dog that day and because they did they couldn’t test the dog for rabies.

I guess the experience of stitches is a good thing for me so that when I have to clean someone’s wounds in the future I will know how it feels. I plan to become a Register Nurse so its good to know but the dog getting hit and dying was not a necessary experience. If I ever see a dog get hit again I will probably still do the same thing but hopefully be more cautious so I don’t get bit.

Also We found out that my dad’s girlfriend is really sick and may have cancer. Out of the four biopsies she has had three have been negative for cancer and one is positive. She switched hospitals to go to a better, more comforting place. I hope its not cancer and that they take out whatever it is soon so she can get better soon. I broke down and cried when I saw her after my dog bite thing when I got home because she was there with us that night and we had just found out that that one test result was positive. Since then we have heard more reassuring things. I broke down yesterday crying though because this just can not be happening. I love her. My dad loves her. She is part of our family. Her sister is going through chemo and everything right now as well for breast cancer. We just have to hold our breaths for another week or so for results.

Sorry for all the depressing stuff. I thought Summer was suppose to be fun?

Keeping Smiling,


It’s awkward being Awkward

I have had way too many awkward moments out in public… I shouldn’t be allowed to go out anymore. 😦 I embarrass myself way too much and I almost always say I won’t ever go back there again but yet I always end up going back anyway.

The most recent one was at McDonalds to get a Mocha coffee. I kept driving too far from the window and I said out loud what the heck and at the same time I pointed at what I did. My boyfriend was in the car with me he understood what I was saying. This girl inside McDonalds was like “What happened? What did we do?” And my boyfriend and I both said “No! No! No! Not you guys!” and my boyfriend had to explain and she was like “Oh okay because I mean we do suck so.”

What’s wrong with me? Sometimes I can be so smooth and normal and other times its like did I seriously just do that??

I run into walls and chairs and I have accidently gone to the wrong car at least two times because my car is white and half the parking lot has to be filled with white cars! One time I was putting my key into the key thing of the wrong white car and I was carrying groceries so I didn’t actually get a good look till after I tried putting my key in and I was like oh… and This older guy saw me and asked if anything was wrong and I was like oh no I just mistook this car for my own and feel dumb and he did make me feel better by telling me how this lady he knew who was like in her 70’s or 80’s went into a store and when she came out she saw three men in her car and so she pulled out her handgun out and told them to get out of her car and she realized when she got into the car that it wasn’t hers and so the police came and she had to explain her mistake to them and apologized to the guys…

Yeah I think my mistake wasn’t as bad but still. haha

Have you had any awkward moments you want to share?

Have a frabjous Saturday!

P.S. I want the awkward penguin t shirt now!



It’s been a while but hello again

Hey everyone,

It has been a very long time. To be accurate, since July of 2013 but I can truthfully say that I have changed a lot since then. I have had a very interesting first half of my senior year of high school. I have put way too much onto my plate. What do they say? “Their eyes were bigger than their stomach.” This school year I am a supply officer in NJROTC(Navy based leadership program), President of HOSA (health Science club), member of NHS (National Honor Society), and I’m in CNA (certified Nursing Assistant).

Being an officer in ROTC…I keep wondering throughout the years why I have kept doing it since my Freshmen year. The program can be good but it depends on the person and the instructors. It has a lot of benefits but is it really for me? I have an extremely loud command voice but I can be very hesitant on making decisions. I hate putting my hair up in a bun with a passion because I have side bangs and I can’t stand how I look with my bangs being all up. I look more Chinese with my bangs up and I’m only saying that to emphasis how big my forehead is. 😦 (I am actually Chinese by at least 10 to 15 percent and my last name is Chinese but I am more of other things.) I also always feel so lonely when it comes to most of the other officers on staff and competitions and such. The best part of being in ROTC are the people in my squad in the classroom time and my boyfriend being in it and watching him do so well.

Being president of HOSA has been a struggle. None of the officers in there except for my Vice president and me do anything for the club. The members have no input on anything so every meeting is boring and I have tried making it fun and so has the vice president but it has not become any more fun and bonding…We will be having our first competition in February so hopefully then we will have more bonding time and people will find their voices. By the way, my competition category this year is Medical Assistant in a more administrative way and I really hope its not boring! Its all about paperwork in a Doctor’s office although there are medical assistants in Doctor offices that will take your vitals and are called nurses often but they are not. I have two textbooks that was given to me to read up on it, so we will see how it goes.

In NHS its just a club of a lot of people who are smart and for the most part don’t want to be there. We all, for the most part, are in so many clubs and sports and activities already and yet here is a club that is so promising to look good for colleges but it asks for way too much of each person. I already have so much going on already but lets just add mandatory meetings once a month and once every week and judge the students if they don’t do the activities set up on the weekends. Such fun…NOT!

Then there is CNA. It is not my lifelong career. Its just a stepping stone but yet I just don’t know if I could do it for the next four years till I become a Registered Nurse and then eventually a Nurse Practitioner. Taking the class in High school is so much more different than if I were to take it after high school at a college or vocational school. We have to do I believe 20 hours of classroom and instructional time and then 40 hours (It doubled since last years rules) of clinicals. Only about 12 of those hours could be at a hospital and the majority had to be at a long term care facility because CNA’s are mostly used to care for the elderly at Nursing homes although it can be spread out more to anyone who can’t take care of themselves and need assistance. We help feed, bath, change, and just about everything for these people. Its hard work. You can get paid around the range of 9-13 dollars depending on your experience and where you work which is better than minimum wage jobs but we do have a lot more on our heads. There are so many rules and laws that are suppose to be followed. Its hard work, mentally and physically but a lot of the CNA’s that I saw during clinicals seem to do it with a real feeling of wanting to help people and brighten their lives a little and to make their last years as comfortable as possible. It has truly been a tiring past week because we had so many problems getting our clinical paperwork filed and done for our class so we had to miss four days of school to do full school days of clincals and let me tell you you that you haven’t experienced true tired until you have been worked out mentally and physically (Mostly standing except for some random events of needing to change people and move them) until you’ve been at a long term care facility all day long for a couple days straight. Its also super heart wrenching for me and I cried today (at home, no worries it wasn’t at clinicals) about how a lot of these people don’t have anything except for the basic basics because they don’t have family bringing them things and doing their landry because even landry gets mixed up and might not come back. Even things like shampoo might be taken and put in another resident’s things. I just want to buy every single person a blanket and lots of teddy bears to make them feel loved and have their own things. Also I would get clothes of all sizes and colors for all of them. It’s hard to not feel like crying when I think of how a lot of these people don’t have their family there with them and caring for them. At least go and visit once in a while! Bring them some fuzzy socks and have the kids hand draw some pictures! People have no idea how something so little can effect their life and make them smile that day or even the whole week.

I’m also tired because now my weekends are not my sleeping in days because I work in the mornings at around 8:30 till when the café I work at starts to get slow. Usually its around 11:30 to 1ish when I get to leave. Its not many hours but because it is in the mornings I don’t get much sleep in at all throughout the week. I mean I do get an extra hour of sleep on the weekends then the school week though. whoohoo one hour!

I have mostly been having a little depression issues again because for most of my classes throughout the school day I have felt completely left out socially. Other people all have their clicks and group of people they are good with and they don’t want to add anyone else. I have a really hard time trying to fit in sometimes. There are times I feel completely in and great and others where I feel like I’m invisible. For example in CNA I felt completely invisible for a long time because everyone already knew each other in that class to begin with and then pretty much every time I would try to say something or ask things to classmates in that class I literally get no response from anyone. When the people are separated and around me they are so much more welcoming to conversing with me and working on skills for the class with me but for the most part everyone already has their best friend in that class but me. It sucks having an all girl class.

I’m sorry for such a very long long post but it has been a long time since I’ve been back. I shall try posting more now because I think it would help me to write everything all out.

Have a fantastic Friday tomorrow!

P.S. How is everybody doing? Please let me know!