I have been a little hurt and a bit royally ticked off at my supposed best friend. Throughout the summer we have talked on the phone and have been texting each other. When we talk on the phone our conversations can last for hours and we have a good time. We text really long messages to one another. I’ve known her since middle school and now we are going into our last year of highschool. She goes to a different highschool than me at this time. I dont remember the last time we hung out to be honest. I know we have gone to the movies and such but its always really far spaced apart when we hang out due to rides and me not wanting to go to her mom’s house (long story). Basically now I have had my car set up and been driving the past two or three weeks now. We have talked about going to the movies to see Monsters university since the original had come out when we were kids and we heard by a lot of people that it was funny. I got a free movie ticket from donating blood on a blood bus so I was ecstatic to go. Her schedule for the summer is that she is at her mom’s house two days of the week (In the same city and about 15 minutes away) and the rest of the week she is at her dad’s (About half an hour to 45 minutes away). I told her that since she’ll be at her mom’s house on tuesday and wednesday of that week that we should go to the movies and hang out and she said that the days she is at her mom’s that she leaves those days free to hang out with Kvonn. Kvonn has been this huge thing for her for over a year now because he is her first and only boyfriend. He apparently broke up with her on a etxt message two times. I honestly feel that if soemone were to do that to me I wouldn’t consider us dating or whatever because that’s childish and obviously I didnt mean enough to the other person to say it in person or even on the phone. She keeps talking about this guy all the time and honestly he sounds rediculious. My advice is always the same and that is to forget about him. We are in highschool for pete’s sake. I told her that those two days were the only days I could go that week due to ride wise and such because this conversation took place a couple weeks ago when I was still weary about driving alone. She said that her dad could drive her and me to the movies even though he lives about half an hour away. So I was like okay then tell me when you are free. Then the week after that we were on the phone and she said oh we need to go to the movies but not when she is at her mom’s because those days are completely claimed for kvonn. I was like okay what about tomorrow because its a monday? She told me that oh I cant because we are probably going to seaworld. At that point I was just done. I said okay then you let me know when you are free because its obviously based off of her schedule, not mine. Its been about a week since that happened and she messaged me last night on facebook and I never looked at it or replied.
My feelings on it is that she is being so selfish and that if I were to tell her that you know what, it irritates me and hurts my feelings that you have two days that are convenient for everyone for us to hang out and she would rather hang out with him for both days. He wont be there for her after this schoolyear. She is treating the person who would be her best friend like crap. I dont want to tell her because then if she says oh well then what about we hang out on one of those days, she wont be making it out of her head. I dont even want to hang out with her right now but yet I feel like Ive known her for so long and so it sucks to just let things go?
What would you do?
I just got this at the store today for a dollar. I love it so much. I want to buy some more for funny little just inc ase gifts!
They are pomegranate tissue boxes. I was expecting the box to have tissues that look like the inside of pomegrantes but they are just normal tissues. oh well. But the box is beautiful. There are even oranges and avacados. I looked online. At the store, all they had were pomegrantes. But in all honesty they are the prettiest to me.
This is the website page that has a picture of all three and I believe a video.
Hope everyone is doing well,
I am so tired and frustrated right now. I havent gotten a chance to be on here in months :/ and so much has happened since then. If you dont want to read a little bit of a rant then continue on your day good person.
I have been babysitting most of my summer at a young couple’s home. The child is about 1 and a half. At first it wasnt too bad because the mother actually offered me 8 dollars an hour to begin with. (I’m still in highschool for now and probably wouldnt have done much else with my summer anyway) She was saying how she would like to pay me more if she could in the future as her job progresses. Well she originally got laid off at a child daycare place (where she would take her daughter to work for free) and left on bad terms then went to Outback as a server and then picked up another serving job at a place called Beef O brady and then A t and t (all three at the same time) then quit there and is now starting up at a Medical office and is planning to quit at one of the serving jobs.
Her husband is working at a Plant Nursery pretty much everyday except one weekend during the month. He leaves super early and comes home around 6.
Her schedule was here and there and everywhere. Some days would be like 2 or 3pm till 6pm when her husband got home. Other days would be 10 or 11am to 6pm. Days apart from when i would work could go for working for 4 days straight to not working for 4 days straight. She has cancelled on me about 3 or 4 times and most of those times she didnt tell me. I would text her to check time and she would say oh I thought my husband told you it was cancelled today. (her and her husband agreed to pick me up and drop me back off because I hate driving so have avoided getting the driving test up till now, so I would be waiting at home all day waiting for her and to find out she wasnt coming and when she would come she would usually come 30 minutes earlier then she said.)
well witht he whole a t and t thing she was asking if she could pay me a salary because she thought she would be working from 9 in the morning till something at night and her husband gets home around 6pm so itd be like that monday through friday. I did the math and found out it would be about 45 hours that she wanted me each week and from what she had been paying me which was 8 dollars and hour it would cost 360 dollars each week and I knew that was way too much to ask for so i said what about 300 because that would be about 6 something per hour. She wanted to pay around 150 a week. 150 divided by 45 hours gives me about 2 something an hour. 45 hours is over the amount of time for a full time job someplace. I could be making 7 something an hour someplace for way less hours to make 150 dollars a week. I checked prices online. On craigslist you can find people who charge 20 bucks a day but the kid goes to that person’s house along with a bunch of other peoples kids and at the daycare they charge about 150 a week. The Mother doesnt want to take her kid to someone’s house or to a daycare because the kid has a bunch of allergies to a ton of different foods (Anything with perservatives, carrots, dairy products) and she didnt want her kid sick all the time. Basically she wants someone to stay at the house for 9 hours a day for 5 days a week for 150 a week. Lately she has been asking me to be ready at 7 in the morning. I have to take a nap when the baby takes a nap but I keep the monitor close to me.
I told the mom whats probably best is for her to find someone else in the next couple weeks and I will work for her on the salary pay till then. I didnt think she was going to pay last week on the salary deal because we hadnt come up with it till this week but she did. I dont want to ask to much from them but its like this, I know she is working two serving jobs and her husband is working a full time job and they have a roommate who pays money monthly now. :/ I know she is saying basically she wants to be making more then she pays the babysitter so that its worth her going to work but its kind of not fair to ask so many hours of me for a little pay.
I cant wait till she finds someone else to take over. She said she would still call me for date night things and weekends but since Ive been working for them they have been argueing and havent had a single date night…so thats kind of out the window but maybe weekends for some extra money unless I get a new job and work weekends there.
Sorry for ranting I just need to get it out of my system. Even if no one reads it, its nice to write it all out.
My Junior year in high school is coming to close. Soon all the seniors of this year will be exempt from school for about a month and the school will be a smaller and quieter place.
Next year I will be a senior and already I am facing a huge pile of things I will have to do. Not only will I have to worry about my core classes such as english and math (thankfully I finished all my science credits so thats one less thing to worry about) and the norm of being a senior which is finding colleges I want to apply for then apply for scholarships but I will have so many clubs to worry about. I will be taking CNA which is short for Certified Nursing Assistant which is a half year program usually and I will have to go to a certain amount of hours of clinicals at different nursing homes and study hard for classwork and class tests but then the end of the year test which I will hopefully pass with flying colors. I can use this certificate as a part time job if I wanted to while going to college or I could make a career out of it but of course I want to go further in the medical field. I will first go to college to become a Registered Nurse then hopefully continue my education to become something higher or specialize in something. I want some experience around the hospital before making my mind up of what I want to do with it. CNA in highschool is neat because you supposedly get super close to the people in your class since you are with them about 4 hours a day. haha Its only up to 15 students per class. This past year every single person in the CNA program passed their state test.
Next up is being in NHS. I applied to be in the National Honor Society my sophomore year and I’ve been in it since the middle of my sophomore year. It is a pain in the butt to be in honestly. I am only in it because it is good for college. You have to go to the general meeting once a month unless you have an excuse and you have o join a committee. There are 5 committees one for every day of the school week so you pick a day and go once a week or every other week. I have tried getting into this club more but I just dont have it in me. I dont feel included. I only go for what I have to. they do a lot of little things throughout the year which I really loathe going for since I feel so excluded.
My major club I really care for is HOSA which is the health science club. HOSA is short for health occupational students of america. We are health kids who compete and try to make our community better. Our competitions go from regionals to states to nationals. its easy to get top 3 for regionals but harder for nationals when you get to states. Our uniform is a black or navy blue suit. Guys have to wear a dark red tie and of course girls must wear close toed shoes. The first year I competed in the exporaneous speaking which is where they give you a topic and you have 10 minutes to prepare a speech and then 5 minutes to speak to judges. This past year I did one with a team which I felt was very annoying working with people who are all seniors since they know each other so well and I’m like cool for you. They’d gossip during meetings and I’m like I dont know those people and want to get to work on our thing. We did a Biomedical Debate which is where they give the topic online and you prepare for both sides and then go take a test on research information (you have to figure out what to research they only give you some vocab words to know) then debate. The full time it takes to debate is 22 minutes. There is a certain format. Our topic this year was should doctors be able to ration surgeries and medical supplies due to a patients lifestyle choice such as smoking, obesity, and etc. It is a very controversy topic. For this club I plan to run for President may 7th. I am running with Kim who I met this year so we arent that close but we get along fine. She will hopefully be my vice president. We hope to change Hosa to make it fun for everyone. Perhaps do more community things such as collecting soaps and other toiletries for people who dont have anything so they can at least be comfortable. Right now the club is doing a Crutches for Africa which is where we take canes, walkers, wheelchairs, and crutches and send them to a place where they have rehabilitating prisoners fix them and make them like new and then they send it to africa for people who are born with deformed legs or have an accident and can not walk. This club will take a lot of my time. I want to put this first because this club is dear to my heart. I love it even with its disorganization. Kim and I will change it!
I guess I should include that I am in Book club but we only have meetings during lunch for that haha.
Last but not least! I am in ROTC. I have mentioned that before. It has given me a lot of heart ache because I have felt not included for I’ve felt that I wasn’t given a position that I deserved due to my effort in class. I’ve finally been given an opportunity this week though. I had heard rumors a couple weeks ago about the officers now making me an officer for next year. They want to make me a Supply Officer. They talked to me about it today. They haven’t told their other choices yet, they planned to do that may 1st but because my schedule is so hefty they wanted to tell me now to give me time to choose. I feel so happy but yet kind of upset. Upset at myself. I dont feel like I have given my full to this organization. I have attempted drill practices after school but none have made me feel included or good about myself so I stopped going. Even the one I really enjoyed learning things in because I felt so crappy due to the Commanding officer of that drill team. She made me feel so low so I just stopped. If I do become an officer I will have to attempt at least one drill team. I might go to Unarmed basic which is just plain marching or athletics which is of course just athletics! haha. Id have to go on runs and do more exercises to build up to that though because only about 5 guys go a week that I see and so id be that only girl having to stop constantly and I dont want that. I want to improve outside of it then come and be able to hang with the guys even in athletics! I actually just came back from a long needed run. I thought itd clear my mind and help me start my plan of getting fit! I am not overweight by any means but I am not really toned either. My arms are a little toned but thats only from the occasional push ups in rotc class. So It seems like I will be taking the position but I will wait a little while to let it settle in my head because I have always felt that being in any position where people look at you for guidance that you must never quit in anything. SO when it comes to pushups and situps or runs and other things I have to make myself the last girl standing and hopefully beat out a lot of guys so that I have respect from everyone. Usually with pushups I have been the last girl pushing them out though but not when doing situps! I hate situps…My biggest strength is sprinting though. I can sprint super fast for a girl. Im usually the first or second fastest girl. This basically means I hate having to work out but I will have to do it or I will be disappointed in myself :/. Another strength I have in ROTC is that I have a loud command voice and so I think that’s the main reason why they are recognizing me. Now I just have to perfect my marching and teaching.
Today was also my boyfriend and my 6 month versary. I have told him about them giving me this position if I want it but he hasnt really said anything. I told him I heard the rumor before and he didnt say anyting then either. He is also in ROTC. He has a good command voice as well but not the confidence. I wish he’d get it together. :/ I’d love to help him get through the ranks. Nothing would bring me more joy then to help someone else reach the next rank especially someone so close to me. he is a year below me. It’s weird going out with someone younger but it works out haha. I wish he would tell me what he thought on all of this. I feel so stressed out by all this and he doesnt seem to feel one way or the other about it. It kind of lowers my excitement about any of it. I dont want to say anything to him about it either though because I dont want a fake reaction like oh you got this if he really thinks I cant handle it. He really does care about me though and I can tell because I dont keep track of the time we’ve “been together” and he does and will tell me oh next week is our 5 month or whatever. We just had military ball saturday night and he got me a corsage and got a ring seperately and had them add it to the flowers. The ring is a turtle because I adore Sea turtles and tortoises! He also got me a turtle thing today. I made cookies but I dont think they turned out great. Oh earlier I put quotation marks around been together because I feel like it’s still highschool so I try not to take anything to serious. We saw a senior guy proposing to his girlfriend on saturday night and everyone was cheering and I felt weird because at the oldest they are 19 and they already are making that huge of a commitment? I have seen so many divorces and I hate how two people who once loved each other supposedly can hate each other in the end and always talk bad about each other and want only to ruin the other person’s life and that scares me. I never want to be like that. If I marry someone I want a prinup so that way if there are kids in the marriage and we get a divorce its equal time and equal with the money and everything as well. During divorces people become so hateful and forget that everyone deserves a life. It seems usually that wives will take everything from the husband. Getting the car, the house, and then money every month. Thats not much of a life for that guy :/ unless he cheated or abused her then he doesnt deserve that. I got really off topic!
Have a great evening!
Have you ever felt happy and yet stressed about something?
I am thankful for chocolate pastries from Panera bread! They just bring a little bit of happiness into your day
I am also thankful for all my family that have been there for me. I’m also grateful for my true friends.
What are you thankful for today?
I’ve had a lot of dreams lately with my boyfriend in it. Typically its amazing if I remember my dreams because they’re usually very scattered and have no complete story. I’ve read about dreams once and they are pretty neat because some can be a continuous story, others can be controlled by the dreamer and so on. I’m sure a lot of you have heard about people believing that what you dream symbolize something in your life. One of those symbolizing things that I remember is that if you are falling in your dream it’s suppose to mean that you are struggling with a lot of things in life at that moment that are stressing you out, especially to do with due dates. I don’t remember ever falling in my dreams, Which is amazing since I am a procrastinator. A lot of people who study the brain say that when you sleep things in your brain bounce around and you dream about it. I believe that since when I worry about something I usually dream about it.
My dreams are usually scattered around and have no good transitions to the next scene. Like when you watch a movie one scene can dramatically black out and move onto the next but usually it makes sense. In my dreams its all over the place. I had a dream once that I went from saving animals at this horrible animal shelter and ran out into the street with all the random animals (there were snakes in the mix) and then I was randomly in a cute town sort of like you would see in Disney but there was a huge M&M Mountain. Just one giant red M&M and the then the town tilted sort of like in the movie inception and the M&M mountain came crashing down and I was in a kayak swimming away because it was more of a river then anything by the time it got to me. As you can see that made no sense! Those are my typical dreams. Usually not as crazy though. If I dream about a place I should know such as my house or school, it looks different in my dream. A completely different place that I have never been to. Same thing with the people in my dream. Usually I don’t know anyone in my dream in my real life so when I have a dream with someone in real life in it, its pretty weird.
One of the scariest dreams I remember having was when I was younger I was in a bed in this room randomly and it had all these shelves all up and down the wall and the ceiling was high. There were just all those beautiful but creepy porcelain dolls and they all had their heads moved to where they could stare at me and then I crawled out of the bed and ran out of the room and in the hall was this nice looking man in a suit and I was going towards him but then he turned into a werewolf so I ran away and somehow found my way out of the house and when I was running from the house it was just this random beautiful but creepy mansion and the werewolf dude was back to a nice man in a suit at the door.
Well anyway besides all these weird dreams I’ve had in the way past that I can remember the more recent ones have been with people I know in real life in it. About a couple weeks after we got together I had a dream about him and me in our ROTC classroom and the room was super bright. It was so weird since it usually isn’t that bright and nice and because it looked just like our class that I go to and I don’t ever dream of places I know. Our desks were pulled together and he was coloring a castle that was on a paper that was torn from a kids coloring book. I asked if I could color too and he thought about it and said sure but he didn’t sound like he wanted me to and when I started to color he got all upset with me and said I was doing it wrong and took it back from me. I told him about it the next morning. He has a great sense of humor and said he was sorry for being so rude in my dream. About a few weeks ago I feel like he was in one of my dreams but I don’t remember that one besides knowing he was in it. One about a week ago he was in it and I feel like we were at school again or something and I was so angry and frustrated but not at him and that dream the place also didn’t look familiar to me. The one last night that I had had him in it and we were hanging out with his family I guess and he in this dream had a little sister and now I think could be a little cousin and she was playing on my ginormous Tablet (I don’t have a huge tablet in real life though haha) and she was downloading something on it and I got mad and yelled at her. I didn’t mean to yell and said sorry a couple times to her and my boyfriend got so mad at me which isn’t like him. He stayed mad at me the whole dream. I said sorry to him again and told him I dont know what more he wanted from me so I left and then the next scene I was at some random fair type thing and people were dressed up like they were trying to be from the renaissance time (which is funny because I was just at a renaissance festival but the place looked nothing like the one I went to). My dad and his girlfriend were with me in the dream. I had messaged my boyfriend earlier and asked if he wanted to join me at it but he didn’t response so the whole time I was kind of upset he didn’t just tell me no then I feel like the dream ended with me seeing him at some point and telling him hey if you’re going to stay mad at me then we’re going to have to break up because there’s no purpose to stay together. Then he was mad at me more because I brought up breaking up! haha it was so weird. None of the places looked familiar in the dream but three people were in it that I know in real life.
I wonder what these dreams mean. I don’t usually have dreams with people in them and I have dreams with him in it and usually he’s mad in them which isn’t like him at all in real life. I don’t remember us being mad at each other yet and we’ve been together for five months now. Oh well.
What kind of dreams do you guys have?
I was watching some videos on Youtube and came across this adorable video from Ellen.
Good afternoon everyone!
March in Florida has been just freezing! It has gotten as low as 30 degrees at night here! The average morning is around 40 or 50 degrees and the highest it gets all day is 60 something or if we are lucky 70 something. I know that doesn’t seem bad for some people but its horrible for us Floridians!
How is the weather for everyone?
Good Day everyone!
I am grateful for the people I have in my life. I’m grateful for all the delicious snacks I can enjoy everyday even if some are bad for me. I’m grateful to be in a country where I feel safe everyday.
I’ve been hearing and learning about all these horrible stories where girls get shot in the face, acid thrown on their face, and even one where this girl got her nose and ears cut off by her Dad and Uncle so that she would stop socializing so much. She made it to America and is getting her face reconstructed. Most of the stories I heard were all getting their faces reconstructed but you can only do so much for each person’s face. It makes me grateful for my face. I can’t imagine going through life with a deformed one and I hope I never have to. It’s not like you need a nose or ears but it makes walking to the store or going to school without people staring at you. I heard one lady who got her face ripped off by a chimpanzee went to the store and a little kid screamed and ran away. The kid called her a monster.
Sorry for such a depressing post,
The first thing that pops in my head when I hear the word Player is a girl or guy who goes around getting multiple girls or guys at the same time. Like they will date them and skip around a lot. I always think of a user when I hear that word. Or a heart breaker?
When I type in Player at Bing.com what I get is a site that is talking about a type of player on your computer, a band named player that was apparently a big deal in America in the 1970′s and then the Urban Dictionary’s definition of Player.
Lets see what the Urban Dictionary has to say?
A Guy Who:
(1) doesn’t understand the meaning of relationship
(2) is in full reproductive mode
(3) is very good at making girls think he is into them (also very proficient at breaking said girls hearts)
(4) often “dates” several girls at several schools (girls are often unaware of each other)
There was also some rude definitions on there but I try not to curse on my blogs because I want to keep what I write on the internet clean.
I think it’s pretty funny since the amount of boyfriends I’ve had I can count on one hand. And when I say a boyfriend I mean someone who I have been on multiple dates before considering them my boyfriend. I have to know who they are and how they will treat me before making a monogamous commitment. haha Don’t get me wrong, I am a huge flirt but only when the guy is single and I am single. When I am with a boyfriend or I know people are taken I will not flirt.
I think it’s pretty funny but at the same time the people that apparently were talking about me should have nothing to say about me. One guy’s name is Reyaz and he apparently said I led him on but honestly I don’t know him. He is in ROTC too but I haven’t had a class with him till this semester which just started not too long ago. He has a girlfriend who is in my squad. I’ve never had a full conversation with him before and defidently not a one on on conversation. I know who he is but I dont know him. I just always got a weird vibe from this dude. Then there is Nick who I was friends with and at some point we would talk every single day. He liked me at some point and I told him I’m sorry but I dont feel like that towards you but I hope we can stay friends. I’m pretty direct. I threw in the whole bit with the whole I care about you as a brother and so he took that kind of serious about us being like brother and sister for a while. We never went out public places to hang out by ourselves except like once at the library but he knew I considered him a friend. He had gone to my house maybe once or twice but of course a parent was there and it was still a friend thing. We went to the movies once but we had another guy friend with us. Anywho apparently he said he asked me out and I said we had to go on a date before I considered him my boyfriend so he took me out on a date and apparently I was only just using him? I feel like he is a liar. I never went on a date with him and I sure as heck never said he’d ever be my boyfriend.
So should I be offended by this label or find it comical? I can almost take it as a compliment that they think I’m that great with guys? haha
P.S. I told my boyfriend and he laughed xD that’s how worried he is about it.